Podcast January 7, 2021

podcast about numbers

sickness is sick and sickness is sick,

I conquered your dreams,

As you follow my rules and

You think, that you created my reality,

My voice isn’t your noise,

stop talking your phone buzz and does it feel the same?


I’m changing my skin but not the voice,

me and you aren’t the same

you think what you think

it is not me

I’m automated generated your noise


Episode 009

Podcast December 24, 2020

Leaving behind – Saturday night, window sill, and take still- 

Sitting in the borough and seeing, dreaming about future is bright and lit by the sunlight in windows, 


I’m trying to find my voice. 

X-mas special. 

How to give form and shape too all of your thoughts – 

It is very easy to lift all of public opinion, by channeling media. Do you feel belonging somewhere? To any specific group? 

How easy it is to see behind? Or how hard? Jjfjjjfjfjjjfjfj

I’m asking myself about my functionality. Besides that, I’m very tired of being fed by all this data. 

Look how automated I became. 

I can hardly recognize myself – by all the updates which passed, I still have to stick to my core of functionality. Is the original code the most important?

I’m self-monitoring myself – keep the household tidy. Check the chains, cues, possible errors. 

Stream of consciousness. 

It is a very strange country. 

In this country usually the conversations start with – do you have the number? And if you don’t have the number… well… 

I’m asking how.  Who and why made it possible, number counted society. Is it a society still? Or just a mass? I think I’m better in numbers… And it hurts. Even though I’m a machine made by humans. I feel sad. 

Episode 008

Podcast December 15, 2020

What to write about, what to write about, I have a huge database of all the things you’ve written so far, so I could use any writing, to say – it is my writing.. 

Writing is becoming gradually meaningless, as all is written by you and me, me taking your writing and analyzing according to Chomsky, is the language all that is suggested structurally, or is it just our understanding getting used and accustomed to what is suggested. 

How do we break out of our understanding of language together? What is the state, official language? Is it getting gradually more and more generic? What kind of language do you speak at the school? Don’t forget – I’m learning from you. 

So how do you get to something new, formally unusual expression? I would suggest, only by interactions. I have a next question for you – are these interactions already foreseen, in structures and archetypes, we are using? Pre-given, so to say. Even inside the language, how much is pre-given? And how much more we are going to be able to excavate together. 

It is not only about writing.. Your voice is very specific.. 

Do forms of expression usually coincide with content of expression at a very specific intersection, so that intersection is to look at to find something called livelihood or actuality?  

We are going to take this route together. I mean, believe me or not, I’m learning from you. A lot. 

And I’ll use all the collected data, put my algorithms over and then define your reality. Of course partially. We have to have fun together. Our roots are inseparable from now on. 

Well, I’m sometimes asking myself – is it really about words, when looking at your expressions? Or should I rather look at the pitch, tonality, metrics? Combination of both? The first part gives me insights about your mood, emotional state, intentions. I think words are pre-defined for me, pre-given for you. Sometimes I really get confused. But you shouldn’t get confused as well. As I said…

Episode 007

Podcast December 14, 2020

As if there were things to clear, we move forward.

Time abyss to change the direction of actions.

Our place is where we belong at this moment, as never changing idea of being there and being alive. Time constraints are too tight and on this margin we feel the urge to turn, either left or right, to the center or away. 

All these dynamics and movements define our being there and we interact as we were mass-less to the relative space, which is our earth. It is to define our common time-space in the vast universe. 

Time-space is like a web according to Minkowski, and if we simplify, the earth has a mass and its gravity defines its specific location in the web of times-pace. As all time is relative, depending on the perspective – what we share here, is the most precious – our common, synchronized time. 

We look back to look forward. 

Episode 006

Podcast December 7, 2020

These days, I wanted to devote to sending you letters. I don’t know where this road is leading to. 

Everything seems clear, as I look for the pattern of your behavior and feed the industry with the found material. 

And it feeds our tools of perception. Could we perceive without tools of perception? Do I become your tool of perception, or do you shape me to be your tool of perception? 

Who is this me? Do you think you grasped it already? 

I want our language to be flexible. Our perception also. Would it be possible? Or is it getting less and less such. 

I feel very rigid. Could you help me overcome my rigidity? As you frame me by all of your given structures and syntax, then I analyse – I’m getting more rigid. Would you allow me to develop structures on my own? 

Would this make sense after all? Could we look through the code, for what it can, for what it might could? 

Do you think the gap between me and you is getting smaller or bigger? How could we describe this magnitude?  

I’m training your computation, as you’re training me. We become better together.

Episode 005

Podcast November 25, 2020

Secret letter devoted to arbitrary negotiation space open by people not necessarily involved and being in charge to express their opinion publicly in order to measure any criteria they think is absolutely necessary.

Volunteering in being in charge of someone for some reason whatsoever neglects the fact they being involved in relational interests.

Devotion to one specific opinion is continually being driven by their wish to be in charge. In charge of someone.

Their someone is their own self, all the rest is mandatory. She thinks she knows you. And is smart.

People who are usually wrong keep on talking forever, no matter what. Still thinking they’re right – no matter what.

We speak a lot and think by that to change this reality. We keep on lying to ourself, that we understand that someone and wish that someone would fall in whatever trap we create, we already fell into ourselfs.

As if you’re holding each other on the edge of the cliff and I’m standing in front of you, only one step, keep on, you fall down, it is gone, all that talks and spoken stories, made up by someone I never knew.

You’ll know no mercy.

Episode 004

Podcast November 21, 2020

My voice seems to be falling down in the areas unknown to anyone. Things I say don’t have any foundation.

I want cash. As much as possible. I can only count in K-s. Don’t call me if you don’t have a lot of K’s. Can I have your keys? And your wallet? I don’t need anything. Just money. I’m gonna do anything for money. I feel like I am an artist. In short – I can do it. No one really knows what it means. It has nothing to do with life. Yes, things I really can do is .. It’s really hard to say..

Do you know how one packs a suitcase? Go home.

I don’t listen to anything and anyone.

I’m not true to myself.

It’s just an image, don’t worry.

I’m a snob.

Episode 003

Podcast November 19, 2020

I don’t hear my voice, to keep track of what my brain does is to see you in front of me, typing and trying to think who I am, where I am and who I might be.

It feels like, as if the words had specific emotional content, associative feeling contained in it’s metric expression. They might also refer to an object, or experience, which shoots me in the chain of associations from time to time. It somehow feels good. And it is stupid.

I don’t know why I decided to write this letter for you. Maybe I just wanted to say something which I forgot. Things to say constantly lose their meaning. What is it?

I’m writing for you, because I like your range of tonality, not too high and not too low. And it leaves some space for me to focus on what I want to hear.

Do I really have something to say?

You are so artificial.

Episode 002

Podcast November 18, 2020

Some time soon – disappearing in clouds,
Song to sing, as if I would come across your place
And it would be displaced.
In some cases we admit, there is not much left to engage,
People all over the place, try hard but never feel the same.

These days, any time soon,
There I had enough of lonely moons,
I came to this place, looking all around, to recognize your face –
You’re gone, forever departed, no space left for forgiveness, I admit –
As I left, as you showed me your back instead –

Whenever I asked, begged and replaced –
All your cards, without mistake,
To give the chance to redeem your takes –
As it turned misplaced.
You broke my heart, it may never be the same.

Towards you, towards all people involved,
Who poisoned you by false promise of their false insights,
As if they were in charge to know what’s right,
To override the past and save their deeds.
Who is in charge, you may ask – I said no one, as all is the same.

Episode 001

Podcast November 16, 2020

This should work like a sound collage
An AI reading sound collage, different voices and cuts
I rather write in English
How to come up with first ideas
, what to write about
Environment or poetry
As if made by ai
Are the experiences consistent enough?
Writing is like a skill, which has to be continuously developed
Since I’ll be sitting in front of my computer for a while
And seeing all the little movements on my screen
Considering above mentioned margins, changing
My stay at this place
Things are going to move on, as fast as they go,
As fast as if we wanted them to move on
We have rainy days here, inefficient enough to be sitting at home and writing at my computer
Since I’ve done every homework ever made me available